4th
Season 4, Episode 2 (10.3.1985)
I believe it’s safe to say at this point that, in terms of Mallory’s sartorial choices, “the 80s are happening.”
It’s really interesting to see these pictures of myself when I was in my late teens and early 20’s (almost!). I can remember listening, unfortunately, to the voice conveniently (for itself) in my head telling me I was “too much”, “not enough”, “too fat”, “not the right look”, “Too smart”, “not smart enough”, etc and I think the biggest waste of time in my life so far was giving weight to all that. I expended hours and hours believing it, then trying to refute it, trying to “fix” it, and it was all bullshit.
I just want to tell anyone in their teens and 20’s who may have inherited these “helpful voices” that the only person that makes them real is you. There’s no evidence to support any of it. Trust me, it’s only you that will try to find evidence to support it and you will twist anything close to suit the argument. Just don’t do it. I did it and regret it.
The plus for me more recently is that after I realized what bullshit those voices were and how unfounded in reality they were and how much of my life I wasted believing them, every time they try to visit me now, I imagine myself 10 or 15 years from now regretting having believed them. It gives me proper perspective again and I enjoy everyday believing and knowing the opposite. And guess what, the roof doesn’t cave in.
Stop wasting your time. None of it’s true. Just for an hour, pretend the opposite is true and see what happens. You can always go back to believing you’re a piece of shit.
Justine Bateman is so great, guys.
